Geez!

OH MY GOODNESS ITS BEEN TOO LONG SINCE I LAST POSTED.

I'm so sorry to that one person that will actually look at this. Lots of busy things have happened since May. I have written some what so I will post that right now. I got second place for that writing contest I entered in May and I was severely disappointed. I'm entering it again this month and I will write a KICK BUTT poem! I'm supposed to be finding a song for my scholarship audition due today, plus I'm trying to get things done for EHS. So much to do but since I have a migraine again (I've had one continually for the last 5 or so days) plus I was working at my job all night I just don't have the energy. :P

So I wrote this a while ago

Scars of the unkowning,
Untrusting,
Unloving truth,
They echo in the heart of the aching one,
The broken one,
The one who can't move on,
The one who can't go back.
These scars of the painful agony coursing through
The heart of the blood and water.
The cross of life upon the broken one's back
It gets heavier and hard to bear
It gets harder to breathe
They must stand alone in the final hour.

Deep right? :P

I wrote this one in May because of a certain guy that broke my heart then flaunted new love in front of me.

Stupid Boy.
Stop Playing.
My Heart.
Thump Thump.
It Stops.
No More.
The Love.
Once Gave.
Now Lost.
Stupid Boy.
No Compassion.
No Thought.
For Me.
No More.
Can't Think.
No Me.
Or You.
No Us.
Can't Stop.
Thump Thump.
Holding Her.
Not Me.
No More.
Stupid Boy.

A Poem For MY LOVE Josh Maloy

If you're ever in trouble
I'll be there
I am the circle to your square.
You treat me right there is no doubt,
You never will ever have to pout.
For in you I have my greatest treasure,
For in you heart is my deepest pleasure,
Knowing you my best friend,
is like eternity it does not end.
So I wrote this poem to you, my friend, my love, my walrus, my Maloy.

So there's my stuff from 2013 (I wrote alot more but I can't find it)

I'm totally obsessing over sonnets lately so I will post all of them and finish my To This Day poem too!

THANK YOU FOR READING!!!!!!! :D

To This Day prequel

Sorry I haven't been on in a long time I haven't had the time. I really need to write more. Okay well, I entered a writing contest for my school today and as soon as I get it back I will put it on here.

So I have a really big project I'm working on. There is a video on YouTube called To This Day http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltun92DfnPY
It has really inspired me. I want to write my own but I'm kind of nervous so if I have the strength I will do it.

I'll keep you posted. I love you guys. <3

Venting poem

My body is an object,

Its all it will ever be.

Nobody loves just an object

That’s why nobody loves me.

You may be confused,

So let me explain,

You look confused

So I’ll show you the terrain.

Love is a game of give and of take

Lust is a sin and a big mistake

Don’t sell your heart

Listen to its advice

The heart knows best

It knows nothing of nice

If you listen to others

You’ll get in trouble

If you keep listening

Your fault will double.

Listen to the heart it knows best

Listen to your feelings and you’ll get stressed.

Can you hear me clearly

Boys are very needy

They don’t think too clearly

It will make them greedy.

My body is an object

Its all it will ever be

Nobody loves an object

And soon you will see.

Final Project

Final Project!

I. Portfollio: Most of my favorite works I put up on my blog already so you can read them.

1. Infatuaion Blur- I adored this poem and it basically describes my life right now

2. You're Stuck- It was a creepy Halloween poem that almost gave me nightmares!

3. My Fanfiction for Phantom of the Opera- I'm absolutely obsessed with it so I wrote about it

 Christine stared at both the men she loved. The Phantom, the one who took her love and gave her a future of darkness with a good career the one whose music made her soul take flight the one that she knew needed and couldn't live without her. She looked at the other man, Raoul, Her childhood sweetheart. The man who was filthy rich and could save her and provide for her and her baby. "You try your patiece. Make your choice." The Phantom growled at her with pain in his eyes. Raoul had a noose around his neck and his hands were tied to the gate behind him. Everything was up to Christine. Now was the moment. Who would she choose? She knew, She'd always known. SInce the moment Raoul walked into her life again everything had gone downhill quickly. She took a couple steps towards the Phantom. "Pitiful creature of darkness, What sort of life have you known? God give me courage to show you. You are not alone." And just like that she chose the Phantom. Her Angel of Music, the man who was obsessed with her and the one who would worship her forever. She didn't know how to make it work, but she would make it. when it came to him she'd always make it. She lived to please him. Their lips met. They gave into their passion. The kiss deepened and she could literally hear a crescendo in her mind as they got closer and closer. They pulled apart gasping for breath, tears still streaming down both faces. They looked into each others eyes. "Go now! Go now and leave me!" the Phantom yelled at her. She quickly untied the noose from Raoul's neck and helped him regain himself and led him gentlely to the boat as the Phantom continued to rant. "Raoul I must stay. Go on without me. I must do this. You've been a good friend. Don't search for me. I want this. I want him." She kissed his cheek in a final good bye gesture.  The phantom sat quietly on his bed in his room playing with his childhood music box and what he considered his only friend. He sang a long to the sad song about hiding your face from the world. He sat quietly after she came and sat by him. She took his hand and held it to her chest. "We must leave quickly." They found the secret tunnel through the broken mirror and escaped into the darkness, Together. Making music as they left.

4. My Fanfiction about Zero and Ichiru from Vampire Knight (part of my NaNoWriMo)

5. Substitute rapid write- I'll type this one out.
 I'm just a substitute for love. Nobdoy actually cares. I'm just the place holder to bigger, better, more exciting things. Guys use me because I'm just like her, She's a copy of me. I'm the original but the substitute yet the same. Nobody really cares about "how is your day" or "what are you doing" they just want me to have to complain about the substitute of me.

6. Kelp

 The place its most easy to lose myself is in my mind. Especially when I listen to music. Its a dark screen at first with the instrumental part. It starts. There's a breath and a melodious voice starts whispering in your ear telling, revealing, their innermost thoughts and wishes pleading for empathy and sympathy the dark screen shifts with everynew word. A new color appears splashes of orange, red, green, purple, the first chorus hits and a spark starts and builds into explotions of mixed emotions. With every word memories mis with the singers and they intwine perfectly like yin and yang. The riseand the falls make the air flow in and out of my lungswarm, happy, pleasure runs through my body like a sugar rush and when the song ends I poen my eyes to the real world. I replay the song close my eyes and I disappear to lose myself in my mind again.

7. Intoxication Rapid write-
We sat on the couch bewildered by the movie playing on the screen. I don't know if he caught me staring at him. Him with his brown hair with the little random curls, his green iris with shiny yellow around his pupils. I watched his body keep shifting with every conversation. I'm still mad at him. He lied to my face and made me vry over him, but that lingering hug as he squeezed tighter when I pulled away, those big strong arms that hold me perfectly. The sweet intoxication laced in it,made a rocket blast off into my heart.

8. Figurine Rapid Write-
 One pen alone forever in a box. That's not the fate for me I don't want my family and friends staring at my cold unearthly carcus. I want to be melted or have my body run out of ink and fall off a cliff. Just toss mein the garbage like I deserve don't let everyone look at the shame of the wite where my ink used to be. don't let anyone see what i'm always trying to hide. i'm running out so decide what you'll do with me now; just don't use a box.

9. Taylor's letter to me-
It was last Saturday Night at a dance in Layton. You'd just walked in looking like and angel in black with red streaks in your hair. I have a girlfriend, but I was so smitten with you I thought we should dance I spun you aroud a lot and watched as your body moved towards me. I found out alot about you. You liked that I wore all white and you thought I was interesting wearing a purple bowtie and suspenders. Tiffany and Taylor, T and T, later you met my girlfriend. I could see the hurt in your eyes and I just wanted to carress you and make the world disappear. You were dared to get my number but I never texted you back becaue I have a girlfriend. Forgive me my black angel who shined brighter than the disco ball. My Tiffany I'll find you. -Taylor

10. It starts now word scramble-
Starts now. under the arch of bright light that heat darkened my tight throat of the prayer this sigh with final breath this my wildest sounding death and as new murmering spores the gererous hands rioting my time moving quiet will resonant, the long road its strange savage air insider our quick moment into that peaked edge whistling through the place to the shining bubbles free into the hands softly to conclude it stops.

II. Last Writing for Class

I always hurt

the blood drips from

the bloddy wrists and the

knives that cut them.

People are full of pain.

Giving it and receiving it.

Everybody does both at one point in time.

Some people are just rotten to the core.

They don't care who they hurt they just want

their own personal pain to end.

Some boys toy with your heart then

leave the first chance they get. 
Some girls do the same then
talk trash.
Some guys are sweet but hide
insecurities
Some girls are too shy
so they go after all the wrong guys.
We're all just living in a world of pain.

III. Reflections

This year was a great year for writing. I've never thought about things a certain way and now I see things from a new perspective. I love this class and I'm very glad that I took it for a second time. I also learned how  much better my writing is when I'm only thinking about it and nothing else and how when I get inspiration stop what I'm doing and start writing it down or I lose it. Plus I've decided to write what I feel and not care what anybody else things about my writing. I'm proud of it the way I wrote it. They didn't so they can't complain. I'm glad I have had to many opportunities to write like I have and blog I will continue you!!!

Interview with my close friend

Alessio:

 

My closet friend and everything. One who doesn't show how much he hurts. We talked about movies we need to see and we talked about our days and our scars. We talked of Benjamin Button, and Youtube videos about shoulder angels. We talked about our dreams and about futures. He says he's got a scar on the back of his hand but I know there's a scar on his heart. I'm the only one who can see it but I know its there it always shows. I heard him talk about things that may seem nonsence to anyone but me. We speak our own language and know it fluently. I know he's leaving in a couple years and so am I to do different things. But I promise I'll write him everyday and make sure he's happy where he is. I'll get to hear his funny stories about companions, new cities, and God. I hope that day never comes because I love to see his eyes. 

Best Poem I've written in a while: Infatuation Blur

You're made for me, I'm made for you,

We fit together, We're the perfect two,

You're not him, and I'm not her,

Always living in a blur,

We stick together to pass the time,

But I'm not yours and your not mine.

You say you love me, He wants me back,

That love is one thing that he does lack.

He loves her, She loves him,

Its the perfect kind of sin.

"I love you back" I say to you

All you say is "she treated me like poo"

I'm not her, she immitates me,

But to everyone else she is we.

He thinks I'm her, Thats why he loves,

He wants me in a white dress, a church, with doves,

She loves him, and him, not him,

All she ever does is sin.

So we're the perfect two, If you became him

And I became her,

But until then we're lost in the infatuation blur.

You're Stuck

You’re Stuck

By Tiffany Gephart

 

It starts out with a girl.

A lone girl minding her own business.

Not a single care in the world.

She hides behind her timid nature making you wonder what she is afraid of.

 

She slowly stands up from her lone place on the bank of a river.

Her long blonde hair flowing down to her waist her long white dress billows in the wind.

She tilts her head up to see the threatening clouds above a quick flash of lightning sends her body ridged.

 

She lets out a silent scream in the darkness.

Her eyes wide and all white.

No pupils.

She turns her head quickly to the left to stare at you.

 

Her eyes are no longer pure but now the color of death as she steps towards you.

You can see the threat in her body language.

Everything in your mind tells you to run but you are glued to the cold dirt ground.

 

She grows not in size but in your mind she is now ten feet tall.

She gets closer her hair grows longer and she bows her head down towards her chest.

The frame of this girl shudders and fur grows all over her body.

She twitches again, and suddenly there is a killer bear in front of you.

Taunting you dancing around you and teasing you to run, but you can’t you’re stuck.

 

The bear looks at you with the eyes of pure terror.

“Run puny thing you can’t escape from me.”  The beast says to your mind.

But you just look at it defiantly as if to say “Come get me.”

You still can’t move as you feel the teeth bite into your flesh slowly taking you over as you submit to the torture.

Moon go away I don't love you no more

Fire can give me wings courage, compassion, and devotion.

 

Love is as frightening as death.

It chills me to the bones.

It makes your heart feel warm but when its gone it leaves you as cold as the last breath leaving your body.

The death feels like a sigh of the ear and the taste of the loss is bitter and salty.

Love like the love from Derrick Eli from Riverside, California. He made my love grow cold and made my heart whither.

The Loss tastes sweet.

Like candy that has been left in your car for months.

The flames danced around my soul sending me rising higher than the smoke.

It was totally awesome, watching the reds, yellows, oranges, browns, the embers of the remaining sins because fire makes you clean.

“Fire can give me wings courage, compassion, and devotion. Fire is obstinate and heady and absolutely not subtle. It is seen as the force burning inside us, the passion to do it with all of ourselves, resulting in the honor and freedom to do it without back stabbing and with an open face.”

The wonderful  ceiling of lust.

Love is as joyful as the plague.

Derrick sucked the soul out.

Tiffy Bear could not survive.

Tomorrow the seplecure will shatter to pieces freeing the spirit trapped inside.

The army of barbies and headless army men.

The spirit will explode with a  loud ringing of plants.

Eir macht ein an.

Even the sky mourns this loss.

Love is frightening as death for the winter holds no love for those who have none to give.

 

 

 

Rant on Girls

Okay so I really just want to rant about girls.
So I am a girl (if you can't already tell) and I love girls, but sometimes we can be so freaking stupid.
Here are some rules girls and guys can follow them too

1. Don't post on your boyfriends facebook page every single stinkin' day. Its annoying for everyone else to see your PDA. I don't want to log in and see "Happy Afternoon Boo!! I haven't talked to you in like 4 minutes and I wanted to just say I loooove youuu and I can't wait to see you in a couple minutes blah blah blah" and then get on an hour later "Oh i'm with my baby I love him so much I can't stand life without him and I need him so bad...." GET OVER IT! Tell him you love him IN PRIVATE. I'm sick of gagging about you.
2. Next thing STOP USING THE WORDS "I LOVE YOU" every single minute. There is a reason true love is a dying thing. You tell everyone you love them the words lose there meaning. Its meant for people who feel really strong about each other and want to express that actual love. 
3. Don't drag guys along. Its horrible and disrespectful. Guys need to be treated with respect too. If you never treat guys with that respect how will they respect you? If you don't want to be friends/date this guy THEN BREAK IT OFF. Don't talk to him anymore. He'll be hurt but he'll move on and forget about what you had. 
4. If you don't want to talk to this guy, Don't Reply. I know a ton of girls that say "Eww its him. Why is he texting me? Why can't he just leave me alone?" Well if you reply to him and give him an opportunity  to talk to you then he'll keep doing it over and over. If you don't reply he'll get the hint. 
5. Don't get caught up on a guy. 13 guys have left me out cold. They just got up and walked out of my life. I decided instead of wishing they'd come back I would move onto another guy that wouldn't walk away. If a guy walks out on you give up
6. And Finally, give all guys a chance. Most of the time those good wholesome boys you want to date but you fear you'll never find are right under your nose. They think that you wouldn't like them and so they never ask. You don't give them that chance to be open to a relationship. Don't go for the jerks and rebels because you think they'll turn out to be sweet. 98.9% of the time those guys are just what they look like JERKS. So if you want to be treated like crap go out with him. Give the Good Guys a chance.

Okay well there is my rant :) Girls PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE try to follow my advice.
TiffanyTheStrange <3

New Entry

Well as you can tell by now I never ever ever use my blog 

account anymore. Probably because I have no idea what to type

and also because I just forget to write stuff on here. SOOOOO from now 

on I promise I will type on here more. 

The inspiration came from a book called Generation Dead. Its a SUPER good book 

that I'm totally into right now. Its about a bunch of dead teenagers that come back 

to life after they die and nobody knows why. Well there is this girl named Phoebe and she

falls in love with one of the more able bodied zomies named Tommy. Tommy has a 

blog that he writes on every single night called www.mysocalledundeath.com. Its soooo 

funny and I totally love how he writes and everyone all over the world reads his blog

and thoughts on life and everyone is able to connect with him. So I'm hoping 

*crosses fingers* that I might be able to write AWESOME blogs like Tommy instead

of being lame like I have been the last little while :) 

Thanks for Reading and I'll keep on blogging >:D 

Bubbles!

Ok I lied there are no bubbles. Except the ones in my heart that are they only things keeping me going. My bubbles make my heart lighter and not so heavy. "MY BUBBLES!!!!!" >:D

Anyways I'm super bored and I thought I should type a list of my favorite songs and parts of some of them (maybe) I love music. Music= Life.

1. I Was Born To Love You by Freddie Mercury aka my hero
"I was born to love you. With every single beat of my heart. Yes I was born to take care of you. Every single day of my life. You are the one for me I am the man for you. You were made for me or my estacy. If I was givin every oppertunity I'd kill for your love. So take a chance with me let me romance with you I'm caught in a dream and my dreams come true its so hard to believe that this has happened to me. Its an Ama-Zin feelin' comin' through. I was born to love you with every single beat of my heart.  Yeah I was born to take care of you hunny every single day of my life. I wanna love you I love every little thing about you I wanna love you love you love you born to love you born to love you yes I was born to love you every single day of my life.*guitar*"

2. Love Of My Life by Queen (Freddie is the lead singer)
"Love of my life you've hurt me. You've broken my heart and now you leave me. Love of my life can't you see? bring it back bring it back don't take it away from me. Because you don't know what it means to me. Love of my life don't leave me you've taken my life and now desert me love of my life can't you see? Bring it back bring it back don't take it away from me because you don't know what it means to me. You will remember when this is blown over and everything is all by the way. When I grow older I will be there at your side to remind you how I still love you. I still Love you."
3. I'll Be There For You by Bon Jovi

4. Smile by Nat King Cole (I adore this song and sing it when myself or my friends are depressed)
"Smile though your heart is aching. Smile even though its breaking though there are clouds in the sky you'll get by if you smile through your fears and sorrows smile and maybe tomorrow you'll see the light come shining through for you. Light up your face with gladness hide every trace of sadness although a tear maybe ever so near that's the time you must keep on trying. Smile, what's the use of crying? You'll find that life is still worth while if you just SMILE."

5. Teenagers by My Chemical Romance

6. Love Sick by Never Shout Never
"Dear I wrote you a song despite the fact you did me wrong. And dear I don't know what the hell is going on with you, But something aint right. You tell me that you love me then you go and leave me why'd you do this to me? Baby I'm lovesick. I just can't eat just can't sleep can't do much of anything at all. Cuz I'm sick and in love with you dear."

7. Til I Hear You Sing from Love Never Dies
"The day starts the day ends time runs dry. At night still i'm pacing the floor the moments creep yet I can't bear to sleep. Till I hear you sing. And weeks pass and months pass seasons fly still you don't walk through that door and in a haze I count the silent days till I hear you sing once more. "

8. Look through Heaven's Eyes from Prince of Egypt

9.Take Me Baby or Leave Me Glee version

10. Fight The Bad Feelings by T-Max (its all in Korean but I LOVE it. I made it my ringtone on my phone too.)

11. If you can dream from the Dinsey Princess sing along songs dvd

12. Please dont go by Mike Posner

13. The Other side of the door by Taylor Swift
"I said leave but baby all I want is you to stand outside my window throwing pebbles screaming I'm in love with you. Wait there in the pouring rain. Come back for more and dont you leave cuz I know all I need is on the other side of the door."

14. In Pieces by Foreginer
"Here I am in this place again its not where I wanna be with you. Seems like we've been here a thousand times now its seems we've crossed a line dont know how we'll make it through. The more it hurts the more it seems so clear. I'm asking you where do we go from here? In Pieces I see our love scattered all around in pieces a broken heart shattered on the ground and all the dreams we could've shared are torn up like we've never cared in pieces. In pieces."

15. Stronger Kelly Clarkson

16. Sara Smiles by Panic at the Disco

17. One Regret by Panic at the Disco

18. Rainbow Veins by Owl City
"Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains and I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins. Cuz your eyes have a lack of color and we should have known that we'd grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone."

19. Can't Breathe Fefe Dobson

20. Heart of Gold Ashlee Huff

21. All I Could Do Was Cry by ETTA JAMES!!!

22. My lucky number and a song I absoultely adore - Move Along by All American Rejects 

Taking words and making a poem

dry throat my hands conclude generous hands under lace long heat. The quiet moment that stops death. Strange, shining, sinews, resonant, new food has like savage air of will and back out vaulting the free through prayer whistling sounding now murmuring simple bright darkened and my road the with its this I a roof in this and it my place insides time spores the terrace of the edge as the loaf light down into the sigh.

Inventing Smiling in Dark Places

If I could feel happy but the depression Form the heart of the soul, I would knowsmiles.
About the terrific feeling the sheer joyfulness. If only I were dead by this was a scheme where an immortal life begins and a courrup soul shatters instantly as a blooming flower. If I could only live but cannot fathom I would knkow about the rising sun and I could smell the swee roses and the blood of my sweetheart the killer My soul was alone with corruption, disaster, distruction. In a hazed confusion and the cyborg vampires. I could fill my heart disires with dispare. And keep my tears among the dead arires of the live, among the living of their grotesque beings. I could fly to Hades in my dreams and converse with the devil with firey eyes in the darkness. The depressing anger between my soul I could scream the heart break who always hurts me. About flowersespecially in midnight bloom with its petals falling so bloody roses-drop. Across the sky to get the everlasting light design. If I could shatter the stupid skulls that torment, torture, destroy, I would break what connections bind; To this terrible love, I would stop dark places smiling from within-like the darkness smiles break off the depressing anger or the monsters follow, that beating heart, swiftly and distroy it.

Final project?? O.O

Heyy my amazing followers!! Sooooo I need help and ideas for my final creative writing project ^^'
You all know me! (I  hope) and know that I myself am creative but I need alot of help getting ideas.

My Options are:

1000 word story (that's the one i want to do but I dont know what to write about)

I could do flash fictions

Letters to people

Poems

Write a song

A one act play

I could write a story about each letter of the alphabet

or anything really!!

If you have any ideas or suggestions let me know!! :)

Love Never Dies

Love Never Dies

• Moments ago by ~TLeeLove
• Journals / Personal

• Mood: Yearning
• Listening to: Til I hear you sing
• Reading: Passion by Lauren Kate READ IT!!!!!
• Watching: Phantom/Love Never Dies Videos
• Playing: Nothing
• Eating: a foot long Candy Cane :D
• Drinking: Water

Anyone who knows me knows I'm absolutely positively OBSESSED with Phantom of the Opera. I'm the biggest fan ever. I have the movie, the soundtrack (Cd's and tapes), I've got stuff from the movie, I've got all the fan gear, I've read victor Hugo's book, the knock off books from it, every single version of the movie (no joke like I've seen 6 or more movie versions of it), and I SAW IT ON STAGE IN VEGAS. I'm so obsessed it hurts. I love it so very much.
One of my dreams is to be in it on Broadway. I know every line every word every sound of it. I can sing all the high notes perfectly and its touches my soul deeply.

Well.... A couple years ago Sir Andrew Lloyd Webber the genius man who wrote the play wrote a sequel to it. Its called Love Never Dies. Right now its only playing in London and in Australia.... They are hoping to make a movie of it and I hope they do. That is another goal in my life is to see Love Never Dies on stage in London England.

For those of you who do not know what Phantom of the Opera is. Shame on you!!!!!
Its about a lonely man/ghost who is deformed and hiding in the Opera house. He's very lonely until he meets a young girl named Christine who comes to live in the Opera house dormitories to become a dancer because her father a famous violinist dies. He watches her grow up and becomes her music teacher. (He hypnotizes her into thinking he's the "Angel of Music" her father sent from heaven) Then her childhood sweetheart Raoul who is a very rich patron and she forgets all about the Phantom and all the time they've had together. The Phantom gets angry and swears revenge on them both.  ~Spoiler!~ She gets kidnapped and she escapes with Raoul.

Love Never Dies is about how Christine and Raoul get married and have a son. When he is 10 years old the Phantom runs into them all in New York while he is hiding from the police (from a crime committed in Phantom) and he falls in love with Christine again.

These both have truly splendid songs that speak to my heart

Right now I am listening to "Til I hear you sing" From Love Never Dies
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Hopefully I'll get my dreams to come true but I doubt they are possible at the time being ^^'

Thanks for reading my rant  

T-I- Double F- ANY (Like Tigger)

My Philosophy :)

I don't know what my philosophy is. It could be  many things like,

 Live as if you'll die tomorrow,

Man cannot live by bread alone, 

Smile when your down it'll pick you up,

 Mind over matter,

Smile as if you don't care dance as if nobody is watching sing as if no one can hear and live as if God is watching,

or Yesterday is History Today is a Mystery Tomorrow is a Gift that's why they call it the present,

 Life’s not the breaths you take is the moments that take your breath away, etc.

….But my Philosophy is unknown. I might know someday when I'm old and gray lying on my death bed my last words will be my philosophy. Because only then will I know its true.. It could have something to do with love I'm not sure because I'm not old and wrinkly yet. Whenever I think of the word Philosophy I think of a song I had to sing in the play “You’re a Good Man Charlie Brown” Sally sings about her Philosophy’s and says “Some take a lifetime, Mine take a minute!” Mine don’t take a minute. Mine take a while to figure out. But I know what my Motto is at least. My Motto is “Don’t try, Succeed.” I tell that to everyone I meet. I believe that if you try hard enough you will succeed. You can do anything if you put effort into it.

My first Random rant

RANT~! Hi to the 1 person that reads my blog :) Its me. Tiffany. This is my creative writing blog but I'm going to try to make it like my other blog (Tleelove on Deviantart). So Where to begin........ Hmm... Well I'm an irregular girl. I have the most random crazy friends on the planet. We only talk about the most randomest things we can think of and anime (namely Hetaila). We live in a small town near Salt Lake City Utah.
Utah. Jeesh. Its an extremely beautiful place but I'm freezing my butt off living here >.<' Someday I'll be able to leave here. Probably about 3 years or so... I cannot wait. I'm a very morbid dark person and I don't like living in the cold white snow and then suddenly being in the blazing heat of the summer. Anyone who knows me I love to rant. I rant all the freaking time.  Hehe Rant.... :P I also use alot of emotions when I talk such as the ones you've already seen.
:$ Embarrased
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:D Super happy
>w< Fan girling face
>.<' annoyed
xD Laughing
x3 Excited
>D evil grin
>| Mad at you
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So I just finished NaNoWriMo in this Creative Writing class. I wrote an entire novel! :D I'm very proud of myself! I love my book too! Someday I will get it published (hopefully) I would tell you what its about but it's a secret ;)  But I can tell you its gonna be big. I wanna go to the movies at this moment. But I can't I'm at school I don't wanna be here. I'm depressed. Really depressed. I'm not going to say why but I am. Its killing me inside even though I never show it. I wish I could disappear. Maybe I will at lunch......

Diversity: Don't matter if your African American or Caucation

"Is that him?!" My brothers would scream every time a black person would walk into the Merino Valley Mall in Riverside California. "No. So shut up." I said while I slapped them and worriedly looked around for him. What if I didn't recognize him? I'd only seen him in bad quality pictures. I've talked to him enough on the phone I might recognize his sexy voice if I heard it... "That MUST be him." Andy announced. "No..." I said. I looked around at the surroundings. There was a giant very blue hippie van, a video game store, eight resteraunts and alot of people. Some where families and others were just there on their lunch break. Derrick and I had been going out for 9 months and this was our first meeting. Thats the problem with living 3,000 miles away from each other. People of all shapes and sizes were coming in slowly one by one. I was so nervous I couldn't eat the mall food. "Eat." my mom snapped at me. So I shoved a huge bite of rice in my mouth and went back to staring back at the door. Derrick. Where ARE you?.... When I was sitting at the table I realized we were one of five white families. I could tell my family was uncomfortable. I was too kind of. Then a guy walked in. He was amazing. I couldn't breathe and I knew instantly that it was Derrick. He and his mother were standing at the door. I walked towards him and all my familyi followed on my heels. My mom walked in front of me and said "Are you Derrick?" He's really shy so he just nodded and smiled. My heart freaked out. "Hey Derrick!" I said as a stared into the face of the guy I'd given my whole heart to. The whole rest of the world disappeared as my mom said "Well ok we're going to go meet his mom you two just stay here and chat." We made eye contact and I couldn't believe it was actually MY Derrick I was staring at. "Can I hug you?" I asked him "Umm.... Sure!" So I hugged him. "But my mom is looking at us." he finished his sentance a little too late. "Oh! Sorry!" I said as I quickly released him. "Its fine." He replied as he stared back at me. "Lets run away from my parents and my siblings so we can actually talk to each other with out lots of eyes stareing at us." I said to him. So we ran away together. It was magical. We talked and laughed and held hands. But everywhere we went we got strange looks from all races. And it got uncomfortable. But we didn't care we were together. And because we didn't let it bother us, we had a fantastic day!! It shows that love doesn't have a race, because its the most amazing thing on the planet.

Ghost Adventures >:D

Creeping, moving fast for me but slow for others, I'm like a bolt of lighting all  you see is the flash then your dead. I'm a ghost. I can do this. I try to help but mostly I just watch. I'm the type of ghost you can see if you want to see but if you don't want to you can't. Nobody wants to so I'm just here. Unseen by all. I can be very protective I'll watch over whom I love and I'm like a guardian angel, but when I want to stop and help the poor soul... Its hopeless. But the land of the living is still my play place. I can mess with  people as much or as little as I want. There was a family they moved into my house and I wasn't too happy. I would follow the father around but he didn't notice so I would pull his hair or change the tv channel but he was impassive  one day I even picked up his bed and threw it out the window. His wife didn't think this was funny so she had one of those fake exorcists come and spray holy water on me. Ha! didn't work so I haunted her. I would knock over things open cubbord doors and slam doors. But she didn't notice until one day, her only child a daughter walked right up to me and said "Hey lady? Will you play with me?" and I made a new friend. The little girls name was Sabrina, she was five years old and she was the cutest little thing ever! I loved her. We'd play dollys and swing on the swings she even let me jump on a tramp with her. Things were going great. Then her mother became pregnant. Another little girl. This made Sabrina excited at first but then it turned as sour as a lemon. Her Mother and Father got less and less interested in her day by day to the point where I would cook her dinner and help her get dressed because everyone else was busy. Then that fateful day snatched her away from me. We were playing ball in the front yard. I saw it coming. There was nothing I could do but scream "No!" as the car hit her going 30 miles per hour. Now she's my partner in crime as ghosts together we'll haunt forever

What I want to write about.

"All we are is dust in the wind." We live for only a brief time. Sometimes we live for along time other times its dractically cut short. One bad day, someone pushing someone else, stealing someones boyfriend, being an affair, lots of things can be a motive to kill. I have even watched an episode of CSI when a serial killer murdered thirty women because he had a foot feddish. You never know how insane someone truely is or what they think about or even how close to the edge of their breaking point they are at when you come along to bug them. Why does man think that if he has motive its ok to kill? If you get bugged to this point don't you want to just get rid of them? Make them stop annoying you? It could be that you just can't handle life anymore so  you can take your own. You think its ok but its not. If you think about your friends and family that will be emotionally and physically harmed, and that tiny fact that we are all living on borrowed time, and that even if you think your worthless and nobody would even notice. You have no idea. Technically we are all just "dust in the wind" blowing and changing. One day here the next day gone. People die every 3 seconds. But then again someone else is born every 11. I sit this reason that you want to live life to the fullest? If its not then it should be. I don't let one moment pass me by. I want to bask in the glory of the moment even if its a really bad one. You never know if it could be your last one.... >:)